Zhi Ying has been able to go about without her diaper since last 2 months. But lately, she's peeing in her pants in school again. I think it must be the side effect of weaning off breastfeeding. The first week when I stopped bf, for 1 week, she woke up in the middle of the night & requested me to take her downstairs for 1-2 hours to play. On the 3rd day, I was feeling extremely exhausted. She wanted me to play Playdough with her. While she was playing, I walked to the kitchen for awhile to wash my hands. When I was in the kitchen, I cried to myself "BooHooo....I'm so so so tired...I'm really really tired....boohoo hoo hoo....". Seriously, I'm really tired & hope she'd sleep thru the night soon again, back to her normal routine. I knew it was a process that i've to go thru as she's going thru some changes i.e. stop bf and she's waking up in the middle of the night to compensate the lost feeling of bf by asking me to spend time playing with her. Then I heard Zhi Ying who was sitting in the living room saying "ni ku ku ah? zho mo ni ku ku ah?" (you cry cry? Why you cry cry?) in a soft & gentle tone as if talking to a baby (like how i talk to her when she cry). I thought she didn't hear me cry cos i was in the kitchen & I was very suprised when i heard her saying that. Such a caring tone.
Then i walked to her & this is our conversation:
Me: mommy is tired, mommy wants to sleep
ZY: Oh, ni tired ah, ni yau sui jiao ah?
Me: Mmm..wo bu yao want play dough liao
ZY: Oh, ni bu yao wan play dough liao ah..OK OK.
Me: Can we go to bed?
ZY: Oh, Ok OK,
Me: But you haven't wash your hands. Can we take the red colour chair to wash your hands?
ZY: Oh, Yes, Ok Ok
Me: Thank you Zhi Ying
After we washed our hands..
Me: Oh, we haven't put back the Playdough..
ZY: Oh, OK put back the Playdough (quickly & steadily)
Me: Thank you Zhi Ying. Can we take the mattress?
ZY: Oh, OK, Zhi ying is tired, Zhi Ying wants to go to bed already.
Then I gave her the big soft toy dog & her pillow.
ZY: Mommy, go at the back, pat pat here.
Me: Oh, sorry, OK.
Then ZY tried to sleep. She lay there for so long, i think about 15 minutes before she really fell asleep. Usually, if she's sleepy, she'll doze of in 5 minutes. But that night, I think she was trying to take care of me, to let me rest so she tried to go to sleep although she's not sleepy. I'm so touched & I thank her for being such an understanding girl.
Yesterday, teacher Amy called me in the evening to remind me of the school fees. Then she told me Zhi Ying has been a little teary in school and asked if there's anything happened at home. I told her I've stopped bf & maybe that's the reason Zhi Ying hasn't been herself lately. She also told me that she's been asking where is teacher Sheryn most of the time in school and asked if we did mention about teacher Sheryn to her at home. I told her it was Zhi Ying who told us about Teacher Sheryn most of the time. Teacher Amy was very suprised and told her that actually Zhi Ying is teacher Sheryns favourite girl altho Teacher sheryn is not her class teacher & probably Zhi Ying could sense that Teacher Sheryn has her heart on her. Teacher Sheryn is not teaching Zhi Ying's class at all actually. I told teacher Amy that I didn't know that she's not in Zhi Ying's class as Zhi Ying mentioned about Teacher Sheryn so often until I thought she's teaching in her class. I also thought Teacher Sheryn probably would have a tough time with Zhi Ying clinging to her all the time. At home, Zhi Ying always tell me she wants Teacher Sheryn to carry her. Whenever asked who else at school, she'd tell me there's teacher Sheryn, followed by kakak..then again..teacher sheryn. She even told me that teacher Sheryn carry her when she fell down at school when i spotted a big bruise on her left leg. Teaher Sheryn also mentioned that she didn't want to put on her undies herself lately but wanted the teacher to put it on for her. Teacher Amy said she's a little "manja" lately.
Zhi Ying has grown into a thoughtful & understanding girl, although once in a while, she'd have some tantrums. But that's when there's some changes like going to school the first time, stop breast feeding or lack of mommy time, which she would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night to ask me to play with her.
Now that I've stopped nursing Zhi Ying, as a replacement, especially in the car, I'd prepare some bread with cheese or raisin and place them in her orange colour multi partition box (it's like a toy) for her to munch. I bought that from Ace. Hope to get another one cos it's so useful. It looks like a vitamin box that are joint together.
I feel very sorry to stop bf. Stopping bf has that emotional impact on both ZHi Ying & I. So I really understand what she's going through. It is emotionally tough for me and more on her i think. But I'm sure, both of us will get over it soon.
