Baby broke mommy's heart to tears - 12 Oct 2008 (sunday)

Baby refused breast since Sunday afternoon. Tried to feed her several times even in the car on our way to Grandad's house but she refused to have it. Mommy was very heart broken cos everytime mommy offer her, she's just turn away. It's not her usual reaction and it's as if she thinks it's embarassing to continue to have mommy's breast milk. I thought she would probably want it during bed time. Surprisingly, she didn't want either and when i gave her bottle with milk powder, she drank it instantly and finish the whole bottle. I was so heart broken and can't hold my tears. She doesn't want me anymore and she has grown up suddenly??i'm not ready for that emotionally. Then she just toss and turn around on the bed trying to fall asleep but she couldn't as this is not her usual way to fall asleep. Usually, I'll nurse her till she falls asleep. I thought I'll just let her practice to fall asleep by herself but she sort of disturbed daddy. So, I brought her to granny's room. Granny said probably she has grown-up and thinks she shouldn't be drinking from mommy's breast anymore or maybe granny teased her in the afternoon by saying she shouldn't drink mommy's milk anymore. I just feel like crying out loud. At last she fell asleep in granny's arm around 11pm, after making some noises cos she was extremely sleepy already. Later at 2:30am, she woke up again. Normally, she'd want to have breast milk and fall back to sleep. But this time she refused and just cried. So, i carried her downstairs, she lean her head on my shoulder and fell asleep after that. Daddy made her milk bottle but she rejected it. I pity her. She seem restless and tired but just couldn't sleep. Then she woke up at 5:30am, same thing, I carried her downstairs again and this time she didn't seem to want to sleep anymore. She wanted to play.So, i showed her some flash cards. Granny woke up around 7:30am and brought her to the garden for a walk. I told granny what happened the whole night. We suspect it could be that granny told her she cannot drink mommy's milk anymore or she had stomach ache. Anyway, later when they came back from their morning walk, granny asked her if she wants nen nen. Granny said "o.k., mommy nen nen ya? mommy, mommy come". At last, she didn't reject me and fell asleep after that. I miss her so much that i hold her, put her head on my right arm, my left hand on her waist and lie on the sofa together with her. I miss her so so so much. Keep on smelling her and lean my cheek on her head. I love her hair. They are so fine and soft.Miss miss miss her madly!! Mommy's not ready to quit breast feeding emotionally :P

Baby's development - 11 months & 2.5 weeks

Baby has grown taller and she's now learning to walk by herself. However, most of the time, she still feel more comfortable holding our hands to walk.

Every morning when she wakes up, she crawls to daddy and wants daddy to carry her to go out of the room. Daddy would ask her to point what is it that she wants. She then will point the door i.e. she wants to go out. Nowadays, she's learning to communicate by pointing to the things she wants or place she wants to go. Everytime she can't open her book or the cover of her cup, she'll make noise to get help.

There was 1 day, she saw her shoes and she brought the shoes to me. Then she pulled my finger and led me to the door. So funny, she wanted to go out!!

I just started to brush her teeth last 2 days. Bought her 1st Oral B tooth brush. She didn't reject when i put the brush into her mouth.

She loves to play with the ball. Whenever it roll under the sofa, she'd put up her hands as if to say the ball is gone. Then she'd bend over and lean her head on the back of her palm and look under the sofa. Then she'd pause for a moment as if thinking what to do now.

She knows what i mean when i say "change nappy". She'd stop moving and let me change and she'd have that innocent look on her face.

She loves Ralph the Rabbit story book. She'd point to show me which is flower when I asked for flower, lorry or wolf.

I've been giving her rice cereal with apple or pear for breakfast and porrige for lunch and dinner, then milk powder & rice cereal for supper. Since then, her poo has been a little hard. Before this, she had potato puree with vege and meat. So, yesterday i gave her potato puree with mashed apple. Mom said her poo is not as hard anymore. Good sign. Hehe.

Everyday when daddy or mommy comes home, she'd cry dramatically if daddy doesn't carry her. Hahaha!! She'd even face down on the floor and cry.

She misses mommy when mommy goes to work. Sometimes she thought mommy is upstairs.She'd point to the stairs as if telling granny she wants to go up.

When she sees picture of baby eating, she'd say mom mom or make the "muax muax" sound. So funny. She'd point at the picture at the same time.

She usually wants to sleep around 10:30pm and wakes up around 6:50am. In between she still gets up for few times. Maybe because she pee or wants milk.But most of the time, i'll nurse her and we'd fell asleep together.